I want to write about my everyday life and what my life is like while living in a maximum security prison. For the people who support me to see what I do on a daily basis & to see that I’m actually doing pretty good, considering my circumstances. I also want for the people that I knew prior to getting locked up to have some kind of connection to me and not always wonder what I’m doing or how I’m doing.
My life is real simple, but simple is cool for me right now. A regular day starts with me waking up at 6:30 every morning because I have to “work,” so I’m up pretty early. I wake up & the first thing I do is listen to music. I need music when I first wake up because I’m not in a real good mood when I first wake up, some times. I take care of my hygiene, get dressed & just chill & listen to music while my celly (the guy I live with) takes care of his business.
By 7:30 am I’m out of my sell & on my way to work. I look busy & laugh & chill with the guys I work with and my supervisors. I work until 1:30 & by 2:30 I’ve showered & am in my cell for the night, depending on what day of the week it is. For the second half of the day, I really don’t do much. On Monday nights I go to the gym & play ball, use the phone or I lift weights for an hour. But every other night, I’m in the cell & lately I’ve been doing a lot of studying and writing. I watch T.V. when I’m not studying or writing.
Right now, I’m watching the Bulls play the Grizzlies. It’s good to see D-Rose having a good game. I love D-Rose & the Bulls. Anytime the game is on national T.V. you know I’m watching the game. I drop everything for the game. Lol.
I know a lot of people has their different ideas of how I’m doing and how my life is considering my legal situation. I’m actually doing real good, man. Getting sentenced to 61 years really didn’t seem real at first. It took some time for me to adjust & come to that reality. I had to grow up real fast, man.
I think one of the hardest things for me was accepting the fact that I could potentially be in prison for the rest of my life. Just the thought of that is scary, but it motivated me & helped me get focused & dedicated towards my appeal. Now, I don’t worry at all. I just do my thing & do everything I can to put myself in the best position to win. I study the circumstances in my case; I study other cases that are similar to mine; and I study the law and how the appeal process works.
One thing that my family, friends and supporters never have to worry about is me not doing everything I can to come home to them. I owe that to them. But one thing people need to understand is that: the appeal process isn’t simple or easy. It also can be a long process. You definitely need to have patience. Lol. I’ve learned to be patient over time, but in the beginning I drove my attorney crazy. But, in my situation, the timing really isn’t important to me anymore. The most important thing to me is success. You have to focus on the future & the bigger picture.
Right now, my appeal is pending in the Supreme Court. I am waiting to see if they will accept my case. While I’m not doing anything with my appeal, I focus all of my time on my education and the people that I love and who I’m closest to. That’s really all it is for me; I’m dedicated to my appeal, and also dedicated to growing as a young man & trying to focus on preparing myself for if/when I’m successful on my appeal. I’m just trying to do everything I can that I wished I did more of when I was out – like school.
My education is one of the most import things in my life right now. I’ll be starting university courses by distance, through Adams State University, in January 2016 – Psychology 101. My goal is to get my degree. I want to work my way towards getting my Ph.D. and I’ma do that whether I’m in prison or out there in society. Everything I learn is on my own through any books that I can get my hands on lol. I don’t have a teacher and the prison does not provide any support for taking courses. It wouldn’t be possible for me to go to university without the support of ‘The One.’
I think coming to prison was something that I needed – as crazy as that sounds. This experience as a whole has been rough and easily the hardest & worst experience that I have ever been through, and going through it at such a young age made it a lot harder. But it’s opened my eyes & I’ve grown up a lot. I think about the way I was as a kid, and it trips me out, man. I had it all wrong.
I wish I could leave to go watch the Bulls game in person. It would be cool to see Derrick Rose play up close – especially the way he’s playing tonight. I was watching a sports show earlier and the media was suggesting that it’s time for the Bulls to trade, bench or cut Derrick Rose. It’s crazy, man.
Right now I’m just chillin. The game just went off & now I’m probably about to watch a movie or something or just go to sleep. The prison is on lockdown, so I don’t have to get up early.
We’ve been on lockdown for almost all of December. I don’t even know why this time. When we’re on lockdown that means that we’re in our cells for 24 hours a day, every day, until we come off lockdown. It’s something that you gotta get used to. You have to find ways to keep your mind busy so you don’t go crazy.
I’ll probably cut my hair tomorrow. Or, I might just let it go and look a little rough until we come off lockdown. Cutting my own hair is a process. Lol. I had to learn how to cut my own hair when I first came to prison because it’s rare that you’ll get to the barbershop on a consistent basis.
Watching sports & Studying are the only positive things that I have inside this prison, besides ‘The One.’ and the people I’m close to. Right now, I’m looking forward to coming off lockdown so I can use the phone and play ball. I go outside on the weekends.
Everything about my life in this place is pretty simple. I do the same thing over & over, every day. Keeping my routine simple helps me to not get too comfortable & just accept this stuff. I see guys all the time get too caught up in the everyday stuff that goes on in here, and they get too comfortable and start to lose focus on things that are most important.
I think the environment in the prison system would seem both fascinating and disturbing at the same time, if you had a chance to see it. Most of the things people read of see in the media isn’t the reality of what’s really going on. I also think it’s easy for people in society to look at someone in prison and their charges and judge them. But I believe if they were to meet some of these same people without knowing their charges they would see that a lot of people that are in prison are just like anyone else out there in society.
Christmas is coming up and I’m hoping I’ll be able to call home. Hopefully I’ll be able to call on Christmas or the day after. I need that. I haven’t spoken to my family in a minute. I’m also hoping to call my lady. I’m more than lucky to have a woman like her by my side. Just the thought of her motivates me to do everything I can to get out of here so we can be together.
I’m missing my younger sister like crazy, right now. That’s my baby. Her birthday is coming up this month. I’m hoping we’ll be off lockdown in the next few days so I can call. I think about her every single day. I also miss my nephews a lot. I gotta get out so I can be there for the 3 of them. They were real young when I got locked up. They were in diapers, now they’re growing up & it’s trippin me out a little bit. I feel like I left them out there. I wonder how they’re doing. I haven’t seen them once since I’ve been in this prison. I’ve been here since 2012. I wonder if they still remember me. Having a relationship with them is important to me, but it’s hard considering all of the circumstances. So right now I just try & get as many pictures as I can get.
Lol I think Russell Westbrook is the most aggressive player in the NBA. He plays with more passion than anybody in the league, and he is one of my favorite players to watch. I’m looking forward to the Christmas game between the Bulls and OKC.
I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, from me and ‘The One.’ I hope you enjoy the holidays with your loved ones. I’ll blog again when I have something to write about. Lol.
Until next time, Dre.